Life Randomness

Ok so I know I have been posting an awful lot lately and I'm sorry. I have so much to say and document whether it be things I need to get off my chest or things about Maddy that I want to remember. Tonight is kind of an update on me. Before I left to go on the cruise I had been struggling with health issues. Nothing real serious, just I was literally stuck in bed when I wasn't working. I figured I was getting sick all the time because I was not getting any sleep or if I did get sleep it might have been an hour or two tops. Obviously on the cruise I was not able to catch up on sleep nor did I want because there was so much to see and do in a short period of time. When we came back from the cruise my goal was to write a paper for school that was already a day late. I didn't anticipate not getting home until 12:30 a.m. and I decided I would have to take a 20% penalty and write it that Tuesday. That Tuesday rolled around and I was starting up my sickness issues. I attempted to work on my paper that night but my body was just shutting down on me and so I went to sleep. Wednesday rolled around and that is when I realized something in my life was going to have to change. Not only was I physically getting sick out of no where, I also had excruciating stomach pains. At one point I told my mom it felt worse than labor and then I said ok it's probably the same but it's really bad. My gut told me if I didn't start getting proper rest I would end up in the hospital. I got scared because day after day I was sick so I decided to email my adviser and ask what options I had as far as dropping classes. She emailed me back and wanted to talk on the phone which I procrastinated in getting back with her and received an email from my academic adviser today that just really irritated me. After explaining my frustrations and letting her know I did not appreciate her tone and about 30 minutes later we came up with a temporary plan. Right now I am dropping my education class because that was my lowest grade and as of today I continue with my humanities class (yuck!!) and then after this class I will still only have one class and will retake my education class and then I have to go back to two classes. I am concerned because I have an 88.25 in my humanities class. I highly doubt I can catch up this week and if I fail this class then I will have to drop out because I don't have two grand to fork out to retake these classes. I only have 3 weeks left to pull my grade up and I also have a final that I have not prepared for at all. I decided to try to continue with this class and honestly I am ok if I end up having to drop out of school once again because my health and time with Maddy is so much more important to me. After reading about Steve Jobs and learning he also dropped out of school, I realized I can make it without a degree and be just fine. I'm happy to continue my education because I have worked so hard in school to just throw it away, but at the end of the day I can't stress over whether or not I can get the work done or not.

iPhone?

In a way I feel this post should wait considering the news about Steve Jobs' passing. I pray for his family and pray they will heal from their grieving fairly quick. When the iPhone first came out I had no desire for it. I didn't see a need to pay that kind of money for a silly cell phone. My how my thought process has changed since then lol. Honestly I don't know what the first iPhone to come out was, but around the second or maybe even third one I was becoming more and more intrigued with them. Last year I was wanting one so bad, but my cell phone carrier did not carry them. I opted for the next best thing, which was the HTC EVO. I liked the evo when I first got it because it had so many features my blackberry did not. I was so thankful to kick the blackberry to the curb because of the limited functions. Soon after I bought my evo i was complaining about the battery life. It lasts 4 hours with little usage and who wants to live life connected to a charger...not me. So I heard rumors about the iPhone coming to Sprint. I decided to do some research about it and supposedly the iPhone 5 was supposed to have been released and indeed Sprint would carry them. As we all found out on October 4, Apple decided to make some major upgrades to the iPhone and introduce the iPhone 4s. Sprint still has to make their announcement on this phone and I'm sure my questions will be answered then, but I am almost scared to go from the evo to the iPhone. I know the iphone is really not up to par in the cell phone world and it seemed evo ran neck in neck with the iphone and in some ways blew it out of the water. So now that my dream has finally come true (my technology dream that is lol) I am left wondering if I really want the iphone. I was hoping for some advice or insight into the iphone. Is the battery life decent? Does it seem to work most of the time? How is the speed? I know I don't have a lot of readers on my blog yet but am still hoping maybe somebody has some kind of information that will help guide me in this decision. My prayers go out to the Jobs family. I myself am shocked he passed so soon after his resignation.

Maddy's 2 Year Check Up

I keep putting this post off thinking I can do it once I get done with work, but my body literally shuts down as soon as work is done and I have been falling asleep. On September 28 Maddy had her 2 year check up. I honestly have no idea what time our appointment really was. I show it was at 3:30 but my mom showed it was at 3:40. I am going with 3:30 because usually when you are late...even if only 7 minutes like we were...you have to sit and wait forever. Maddy handled the wait pretty good in the beginning, but towards the end she was over it and honestly I didn't blame her lol. Maddy no longer sits on the baby scale which I must say made me a little sad. She weighed in at 25 pounds. They also did not lay her down on the table to measure her height, again, I was a little sad. She was measured using the big girl measuring thing and she measured in at 34 inches in height. Luckily she did not get any shots...she is done with shots until age 4 and that set is a doozie. She did however, have to get her finger pricked to check her blood levels, iron, and her lead levels. Her doctor, which I absolutely love, came in and showed me her height and weight graph and she fell right in the average category. Her BMI is also good so she was perfect. Her blood work showed she had good iron levels and was not anemic and she also has practically no lead in her so I know the things she is chewing on are not harming her lol. I had to fill out a questionnaire on Maddy and it was testing for autism which she passed with flying colors on. They also start checking for heart problems, arrhythmia's and she told me signs to look for and when to be alarmed. That was pretty much everything that happened during this check up. She doesn't have to go back until she is 3...yay!!!

Maddy's Birthday Party

Maddy's birthday party was Friday September 30. I ran into a few problems when planning her party. First of all I put the wrong dates on the invitations I mailed out. I was embarrassed to be honest and just could not believe I did that. I then realized on Tuesday that I was supposed to have mailed the check to her party location the week before the party. Because I was so busy staying up all night preparing for our cruise and trying to get everything squared away, I completely forgot to mail her check when we left that Thursday. I felt like I had failed Maddy because her party was becoming one big mess. With the help of my mom we figured out a new location. We had her party at a local park that I love so much called Riverpark. We rented a building and the view was so pretty. I worked 4:00 a.m. until 3:40 p.m. that day and then scrambled to get ready. My mom makes all the birthday cakes in our family and this year Maddy had two...an Elmo cake and a dog cake. We ordered Little Caesar's pizza for everybody and had cold drinks. Again my camera is not near me at the moment, so I will have to come back and add the pictures later. Maddy got a lot of neat stuff at her party and I think she had a good time. She looked so cute in her birthday dress. She got a lot of Elmo stuff and some books that are just adorable. They talk about what I want all kids to know which is God loves you and You are special. It was a special birthday too because this was the first year that everybody in my family could attend. For Maddy's 1st birthday my aunt and uncle were unable to come because of baby Aria's health issues, but this year Aria is doing so well and is so super adorable so they were able to bring her and all the kids got to enjoy each other's company. I know she will not remember her 2nd birthday, but I at least have a lot of pictures to show her as well as the memories. I would not trade my life for anything in this world. Some may think the parent life is not for them, but this life is definitely for me and I feel so super blessed to be Maddy's mom and see the world through her eyes. I love you very much Maddy!

Cruise Part 4 (Sunday & Monday)

Sunday was a bittersweet day for me. I was beyond exhausted on this trip, but at the same time I was enjoying being away from everything that I did not want the trip to end. Since Sunday was just a travel day on the ship, me and Maddy slept in until 10:56 a.m. Do you know how good that felt??? Once we woke up we got ready and hunted down Nana. We finally found her...she was at the waterpark. Maddy had her usual breakfast, a big bowl of fruit. Maddy ate fruit as if it were going out of style or something. I realized either on Saturday or Sunday that I made a huge mistake in not checking Maddy's suitcase before we left because she had no shorts...only tops. The only bottoms she had were the ones she came with, which were black capri leggings and a pair of long white leggings. I remembered I was supposed to have packed her shorts the night before we left because at the time I packed her suitcase we were still in short weather and she does not have enough shorts to pack for 4 days and still have some to wear to school. I was not very happy with myself but what can ya do that many miles away? So after breakfast we hit up the waterpark. The water was so cold in the beginning. Luckily Nana is a trooper and took Maddy out in it. It was a perfect place for Maddy because they had just a tad of water to wade through and then they had the slides for the adults, the teenagers, and the little kids. Maddy went down the little kid slide one time but I don't think she cared for it because at the end the water splashes in your face. I have a video of her sliding down that I will have to add later as my camera is in my car at the moment. We stayed at the waterpark about an hour or so. We had to leave because Maddy needed a diaper change and was also getting hungry. So we pack up and leave thinking we would return, but Maddy had other plans so me and Maddy took a nap while Nana went back out. After our nap it was time to start getting ready for dinner. We didn't wake up until 6:00 p.m. which is when our dinner time was so we did not eat in the main dining room. We went to the buffet on the Lido deck. Maddy had some kind of seafood penne pasta, which was really gross in my opinion lol, and some baked potato and some bread. I had salad, meatloaf, some baked potato and that was all. For dessert we tried some cakes that were absolutely horrible. Maddy ended up eating more fruit and then her pops took her back to the room to watch a movie while me and my mom had our last night out. I really enjoyed the last night out. We spent it getting in our last minute pictures and buying last minute souvenirs. After we were done we had to head back to our rooms to get our luggage out by 11:00 p.m. We also had to fill out a U.S. customs form which I really have no idea why that was really necessary because they didn't even  check it really when we went through on Monday.
Monday was one long waiting day and Maddy was not having any part of it. We ate breakfast around 7:30 which she really enjoyed. After breakfast we went back to our rooms to get our stuff and then headed out to the hall because we had to be out of our rooms by 8:30 a.m. We let Maddy walk around thinking it would help pass time with waiting, but she was only having that for a short time. It then became a "lets run away from  mommy game and laugh". She was starting to get in her mood where nothing made her happy and she would just go into fits for the littlest thing so I decided she should go in her stroller and be strolled. My thought process was that she would fall asleep but boy was I wrong. I tried to stroll her some, but she would bow her back in her stroller and stop the stroller with her feet so I stayed close by my mom for back up in case I needed it lol. Two little girls from Costa Rica wanted to help Maddy so they came over to look and smile and be cute lol. We found out that they were headed to Disney on Tuesday and would be there the week. I was amazed that someone could afford to go straight from a cruise to Disney. Can I have whatever job you have please? Maddy started to be ugly towards them so their aunt called them back over to her to keep them from making Maddy more angry than she already was. My mom decided to take her in a more secluded area to try to help her out. She got calmed down but did not fall asleep. So we are finally called to get off the ship and get our luggage and go through customs. I felt weird going through customs because they are uniformed and wearing latex gloves as if we are contagious or something and they don't really speak to you...they just stand there and I guess expect you to know exactly what to do. I assumed it was just the customs form and he took it and then held his hand out. I was like ok....not really sure what else you need here lol. He finally pointed to my license and birth certificates and I was like OH lol. So we get out of the customs building and hop over to the bus that is taking us to the airport. It was a nice bus ride because the driver was funny and he decided to give us a mini tour that I don't think the other passengers really cared about. He talked about some of the buildings we were seeing and a little about the history of the port and things like that. We saw the future home of the Florida Marlins and also saw the  Miami Dolphins stadium. Once we arrived at the airport he gave us some good advice and suggested if we had alcohol that was not in our suitcase we needed to put it in as soon as we got off because they would make you throw it away otherwise. This one woman had a case of alcohol that she had no idea how she was going to get it in her suitcase. She apparently did because I saw her later without it in her hand lol. I'm not sure the exact time we arrived at the airport but when I saw the clock it was 11:35 a.m. We could not check in our luggage until 2 because our flight wasn't until 5:11. Maddy was asleep in my mom's arm thankfully and slept most of the time away. She woke up around 1 and then her and pops went to go get some snacks. After she got done eating oreos she was ready to walk around so off we went until she tried the whole escape thing again. She thinks it's funny when we start chasing her so I really need to figure it out to where I am not chasing her. I decided to get her attention to the palm tree and then we sang ring around the rosy until time to check in our luggage. Once we got checked in we headed over to a Chili's to go and we all got hamburgers. That burger was so good because I was sooo hungry lol. After lunch we headed over to our gate to do nothing but wait...and wait...and wait. Me and Maddy went to find a gift shop that I saw when we were there previously but I could not find it this time. My mom decided to walk with us to see if we could find something and we sure enough did. My mom bought Maddy a Dora Magnet book that is perfect for the plane and car. I got her an Elmo that she spotted a mile away. That little Elmo was $9.99 I was just completely shocked because it is a little old thing lol. On our way back to our seats my mom noticed our flight was cancelled. I was beginning to panic because I saw work flash before my eyes. I have no more vacation and if we didn't get home on Tuesday I was in some serious trouble. We found out our plane was having mechanical troubles and they booked us on another flight that didn't leave until 6:25 p.m. By this time i was just over our vacation and ready to be home. It was 4:40 p.m. and understandably Maddy was starting to melt down. To spare repetitive details let it be known that Maddy pitched many a huge fits while waiting. We were finally able to board our plane and Maddy was just so over it that she didn't care she was on a plane. She wanted up or she would want to go or she would just start crying over something else. Getting her in her seat and buckled was almost impossible. I was nervous over feeling sick as well as I knew we would be flying in storms and that is scary to me because the plane will just drop sometimes and it just feels like you are going to crash. I am also used to being able to ask my mom if certain noises are normal and what not because I haven't really flown a whole lot and she has. It makes me nervous to think about the what ifs that can happen on a plane and thinking about Maddy and her safety. We were ready for take off and I really enjoyed our pilot. He gave us a pretty smooth flight and once we hit a few bumps almost immediately came on the speaker to assure us everything was okay. I felt much better and I also did not feel sick at all. Maddy was having problems with the noise on this flight and wanted the plane to stop. It was a busy flight as far as keeping Maddy occupied and not screaming and she almost lost it and went into a full fledge screaming fit but was saved by my mom letting her use her earphones to hear the music. I was just so very thankful she had them. We got in our car around 10:00 p.m. or a little after and prepared for our 2 hour drive home. Maddy got into her bed around 12:30 a.m. and I felt horrible because she had to wake up at 7:30 a.m. that morning to get ready for school. She was so completely worn out and if I had the vacation I would have let her stay home to get rested up and have some chill time in her comfortable surroundings. All in all our trip was up and down but we did have a nice time and it is something I would do again even with Maddy being at this age. I might consider letting her go to the kid room where they have toys for her age next time, but I at least know a little more what to expect. I will add pictures and video later so sorry this is so long with nothing to break it up for now.

Cruise Part 3 (Saturday)

On the boat you have no real sense of time. Even if you have a cell phone it may or may not be the same time the boat has. I constantly felt the need to ask what time it was but I really enjoyed not having to worry about time all at the same time. The only time I knew for sure what time it was, was when we would dock. It isn't annoying if you get woke up from docking, it's just a new noise you normally don't hear in the mornings and extra vibrations. I woke up to us docking on Saturday and just lay in bed until I had to get up. I had my mom give me a wake up call but honestly I cannot remember what time we got up on Saturday. When we did get up we took Maddy to have some breakfast as usual and my mom told me our beach excursion had been cancelled due to rain. To say I wasn't at all disappointed would be false, but I wasn't as disappointed as I could have been because I had been tracking the weather in the Bahamas before we left and it clearly showed rain. Here are some pics of the Bahamas from the boat:

We knew we wanted to do something in the Bahamas but we had a little difficulty finding something that would be fun for us and be ok for Maddy at the same time. We decided on the Discover Atlantis excursion. We got an hour of guided tours in the Atlantis and then we were able to walk around on our own. We went by bus to the hotel because the lady at guest services said there isn't as much walking. I didn't realize I could bring Maddy's stroller so we ended up carrying her the entire time. Thank goodness my step dad can hold her because she is getting heavy. He was able to hold her most of the time and then me and my mom also had our turns holding her as well. Here is the Atlantis hotel from the bus:

yes, some of my pictures are crooked because I was in a hurry to just snap lol. Anyways, the tour guide was really good and she was humorous at times and very knowledgeable. I couldn't hear all of what she said, but it seemed very interesting and something I would like to do again once Maddy is older. They had amazing sculptures in the hotel. I will show you the rest of the hotel pics now.

We also got to see the aquarium which was really neat as well.

Considering the length of the tour and the fact that she was carried the entire time Maddy did exceptionally well. She had a few fussy moments which is to be expected but my step dad just took her out for a minute and she was fine. After the guided tour part was over we were going to grab some food before exploring on our own. My step dad was going to get it while me, my mom, and Maddy shopped around in the stores. I was so excited because I was wanting to get something for Maddy from the Bahamas. On our way to the shops a local man came up to us and held his arms at toward Maddy and said, "Come, you go with me" I really didn't know what to think about him because he seemed really nice and I am pretty sure he was a chef at a restaurant nearby but I also feared someone trying to take Maddy on this trip so I smiled and looked at Maddy and Maddy just looked at him like what are you doing lol. I was thankful both me and my mom were holding her hands that way she couldn't take off very easily. He kept telling her to go with him and then walked off. Once he walked off Maddy turned around and said, "Bye bye" He then turned around and said, "Bye bye baby...bye bye" It was a little unnerving. Soon after that my step dad came back and said it was going to be an hour and a half wait and it was already 3:30 and our dinner time was 6:00 so we decided to just go back to the boat to get ready. They had some really cute things in the market place but I knew how important it was for Maddy to get her nap in before dinner and I was tired too so I decided to just keep moving lol. Once we got to the ship it was starting to rain again and that was some cold rain. They had to xray our bags again and walk through metal detectors and then we were once again on board Carnival's Imagination. We took a short nap and were up once again to try dinner out. We got all fancied up and Maddy really looked beautiful in her dress. She is a little girl now and it is just unreal. Here are a few pics of us dressed up:

 Since she missed her actual birthday dinner, they waited until she was feeling better to sing happy birthday to her. I have to say that cake was the most amazing thing I had put in my mouth. It was chocolate with a light mousse and the combination just flowed. Maddy was a little unsure of the cake and singing but I think she liked it deep down. I want to show you the pic they took of us during dinner but want to add the photographer did not have his settings right as we are washed out.

Maddy did much better during this dinner and the staff was super sweet with her and very patient and very understanding. I really appreciated their kindness because most people want to get rid of kids and not deal with them. After dinner we headed back to the room to change into more comfortable clothes. Me, my mom, and Maddy went exploring on the ship again and got me and Maddy some soft serve chocolate ice cream. She had her first ice cream come but didn't like the cone. My mom enjoyed some fruit. Maddy was exhausted by this point and her attitude and temper showed it. She was carried back to her room kicking and screaming. We settled in for the night and off to sleep we went. I will try to finish talking about the cruise this weekend :)

Cruise Part 2

I was supposed to wake up Friday morning (9-23-11) around 5 a.m. so I could work on school and get my participation done for the day. My alarm never went off and I woke up at 6:30 a.m. instead. I panicked a little because we needed to be down in the lobby by 8:30 a.m. to catch our 9:00 shuttle to the ship. In the middle of me getting up looking for directions on how to connect to the hotel wi-fi Maddy woke up. Bless her heart she was so sleepy. I sang happy birthday to her and she just grinned from ear to ear. After school I started to get ready and quickly found out that even if Maddy can see me she does not like me to be in the shower. She cried the entire time. Had I been thinking clearly, I would have gotten her some bite bites and some juice so she could eat while I got ready. 6:30 a.m. was just a bit too early for me to think lol. After I got my hair dried Maddy was desperately wanting something to drink so we called Nana to get her to bring some back with her. Instead, Nana suggested she come get Maddy so I can finish getting ready and they would feed her and get her something to drink. Around 8:15 I am finally ready and am ready to get Maddy ready. By this time I am in rush mode so Nana helped me get Maddy ready and get us packed again. I almost left behind most of my clothes because I had them in the bathroom and didn't go back to check to make sure I had everything...thank goodness something told my mom to go look. In the lobby waiting for the shuttle Maddy is getting restless and wanting to go here there and everywhere. I received an email from Sprout that had a video on it...it was so cute. It was all the cast members of the good morning show singing their happy birthday song. If you're interested in the video I posted the link here. A little before 9 the shuttle was ready for us to get on and get going. Maddy sat with her Nana and Pops and definitely kept them busy as she was for sure getting tired. Here she is on the shuttle:

 This is when we were waiting for the shuttle

 Here she is watching her Happy Birthday video...phones come in real handy sometimes lol

 Sitting like a big girl in the shuttle

Can you tell she is sleepy?
We got to see some of Miami along the way to the port and I thought it looked very neat. I will post a few pics that I haven't posted in my pic post:

I thought once we got to the port it would be smooth sailing from there...boy was I wrong. If you have a toddler and you plan on going on a cruise...expect a lot of waiting. I was not prepared for that at all and I didn't have any toys for Maddy. We had a computer for her but we realized on the shuttle we left it at the hotel so we were down to nothing. It is hard to travel with a lot of toys too because you can only fit so much in a suitcase and there are weight limits and what nots. We waited from about 9:45 a.m. till noon total before we could board the ship. Once we got inside to wait Maddy was a wild indian at some points. If you stopped her from doing what she wanted she would scream and say NOOOO and fall out in the floor. She has also learned to say OW when you are trying to get her to do what you need her to do. I just let her say ow and continue doing what I need to do. I do make sure to say I'm not hurting you because people do tend to listen and I am sure from the outside looking in it doesn't look too pretty lol. She also tries to bite you if she gets mad enough and she will pull her out and just scream as loud as she can and then she will try to run off. Once you catch her she goes right back to the ground and rolls around and kicks and pushes and says no and all that good stuff. Let me reiterate again that I was just wore out! My step dad would take Maddy walking off an on and I think he would bring her back when she started her fits lol. At the very end of our wait I just made her go in her stroller, which brought on another good fit. There was no calming her down and people just stared. I was embarrassed and about ready to say we are going home. They started playing Will Smith's Miami song I think is the name and that got everybody pumped and I was relieved because we would be boarding soon. That relief ended shortly because they announced our rooms wouldn't be ready until 1:30 p.m. Not only do I have a child that is pitching fits right and left but I also have to lug all this stuff around for an hour and a half while I try to keep up with her???? Once we got on the ship they took our picture for our room keys and then we headed off to the Lido deck for some lunch. I was excited for Maddy because she could have all the food she wanted whenever she wanted. After lunch we walked around and explored a little and then went down to our room. I was impressed with the rooms and was ready to set sail. At 3:45 we had a safety talk to listen to and then we left promptly at 4:00 p.m. They were quick to get the party started and started getting people to dance to the Cha Cha song...I don't know the real name of it. After doing some dancing we headed back to our room for a little nap before dinner. Maddy was not ready to wake up from her nap but she didn't pitch any fits, little did I know her fits were waiting for dinner. Once we got to the table she sat down just fine while the waiter got her a high chair. She was wanting to run around the table and didn't understand why she couldn't. Once the high chair got to the table I attempted to put her in it but she was not having it. I lost my strength to keep trying so I just sat her in my lap which she absolutely hated. She started her kicking and screaming and crying and I just tried my best to contain her. She got so mad at me that she took my face and scratched/pinched me as hard as she possibly could and then that wasn't enough for her that she had to go and bite me. By that point tears started to form in my eyes because really it hurt me pretty badly. I was also just wore out and when I get wore out I cry at the drop of a hat. My step dad saw what happened and told me I didn't have to stay the whole time so I quickly gathered all my things as the waiter is watching what is going on and i pick Maddy up who is crying and I get up and walk out just boo hooing. The trip was not going well at all and it had just begun. My mom goes with me to make sure I don't need help with Maddy and I told her I would not go to dinner again that we would just skip dinner and eat in the room. I was dead serious about that. I would forego the captain's dinner and just stay locked in the room. I don't think my mom knew what to say and honestly I would have felt the same way. She just listened. My mom managed to get one picture of Maddy at dinner during the first night...here it is:

So she goes back to dinner and I turn out the lights, give Maddy some food, stick her on the bed, and I laid down myself and turned on the tv for Maddy and I went to bed. I was really hungry and I also could not stop crying. Maddy would look at me every now and then and she decided she wanted to sit on top of me while she watched tv so I let her. She ended up laying down on me and we both fell asleep until my mom called. She offered to walk the ship with me while my step dad kept Maddy. I turned her down originally because I didn't want to face anybody or anything at that moment but she talked me into it and I'm glad she did. We sat outside while she ate some fruit and I ate some cheese. It was so pretty seeing the wide open ocean. Afterwards we took some pics of the ship and then decided to call it a day. I told myself Saturday would be a better day and then me and Maddy went to our rooms and went night night.