Sporadic Memory

It seems like a whirlwind of events have occurred here lately. One that is still heavy on my mind is the passing of my old pastor and founder of my church...Brother Bob Stitts. I was on vacation when I saw on Facebook that he had passed on Wednesday. My heart broke for the family because even though they all know where he is and that they will see him again, as humans we still miss those that have passed. Several people started writing out their memories of him. What came to my mind is the night I decided to walk down the aisle to let the church know I had invited Jesus into my heart and I wanted to be baptized. That is a moment I will never ever forget. I don't remember the date, but I do know it was a Sunday night. I had been trying to work my nerve up to walk in front of everybody. My mom knew I was wanting to go forward and told me to just let her know when and she would be right there. I don't remember specifically how I told her but I found myself that Sunday night walking down the aisle. Brother Bob had the biggest smile on his face and knew exactly why I was coming forward. Without saying a word he ushered me over to meet a counselor. I was shocked he knew why I was coming forward, even though I recently just figured out how he knew lol. He had been trying for a few weeks to get me to come forward....I know because he would always find me and look right at me during the invitation and then of coarse it was one of those things I just knew. I told my mom I felt like he was waiting on me to come forward and she just said he probably discerns it. He was a great leader, pastor, role model, and encourager. I attended one of his bible study classes and he had a heart that was sure on fire for the Lord. I will miss him dearly. 

For my memories sake I want to write about a dream I had. I had a strange dream while I was on vacation and I didn't really think about the meaning until I saw Brother Bob's funeral service. During the service my pastor, his son, talked about when his dad was first in the hospital he told him God had spoke to him and put the number 96 on his heart. He was hoping it meant he would live until he was 96 years old, but it wasn't. It wasn't until he passed away on Wednesday that they understood what that number meant...From the time he was in the hospital until the time he passed away it was exactly 96 days. My dream...or the main jest of the dream focused on me being pregnant. I have had dreams of being pregnant before and it is never what it seems. In my dream I took a pregnancy test and it came back positive. I counted when my due date would be and found it would be in April, which meant I became pregnant in July. If you look up what giving birth means, it means new life is about to begin. I don't know if it really means anything but I wanted to document the dream in case it did. I have been praying for certain things in my life and I am thinking it might have to do with that. Time will tell...that's for sure :)

I want to write about our vacation, but I'm not quite ready for that yet. I can say we went to Panama City Beach, FL and we didn't do a whole whole lot of things away from the condo. We did have an amazing time though and really had a rough time coming back to reality. Maddy is still trying to recover as a matter of fact. She got so used to us sleeping together and not having to go to school and things like that. We have been on major fit mode since returning home. Manny on the other hand is so very thankful we are back. He hasn't left my side since he came home and he seemed so happy to spend the night in bed with me last night lol. I missed him just as much as he missed me!

I am starting a year long fitness goal. I can't think of the word I'm looking for lol. I started making time to work out about a month to leaving for our vacation. I did make progress but I tend to get sick every time I start a session. I think I need to get some vitamins to prevent this. I did make some progress, but I basically lost it all two weeks before we left. I've seen what a year can do to some people who really put forth the effort and I'm convinced and determined I can change my body in a year too. I do struggle with wanting results right then, but it doesn't work that way. I plan on using Jillian Michaels workout because getting to a gym is just impossible for me, plus I feel so intimidated. I prefer working out in my home. I would love to get an elliptical, but it's just not possible this year. 

I do not have any pictures for this post, so sorry for the boring post lol. I hope everybody has had a wonderful week so far :)