Random Thoughts

I know I have been starting out or at least talking about how rampant the devil seems to be running lately. This post is no different. I myself am being attacked and I know several other people are as well. Through this rough time I have at least learned something, although it's sometimes going to be easier said than done. One thing I have learned is that regardless of our situation or circumstance, our joy should still be there. I have been reading the wonderful devotional my mom got me and I am amazed at how personal it feels. I'm going to write a portion of the devotion for October 5. "Remember that joy is not dependent on your circumstances. Some of the world's most miserable people are those whose circumstances seem the most enviable...True joy is a by-product of living in My Presence. Therefore you can experience it in palaces, in prisons...anywhere..." The next day, October 6 it talked about following Him wherever He leads though we may not see the big picture...walk by faith not by sight. I could go on and on up through today because everything  has just been so relevant to what has been going on in my life. I've recently learned of another fellow blogger who tragically lost her husband over the weekend. They have an 11 month old daughter and I just cannot even begin to fathom the pain she must be feeling. She lost the love of her life and became a single mother in just one night. Her daughter will never know who her father is. Sure she will hear stories, but she herself will have no memory of him. Today was a silent day of blogging and I chose to participate. It's not quite midnight, but it's close enough. I have prayed and thought about this family all day today. I do not know them at all, but my heart aches for them. As my personal circumstances got worse I read about how the uphill journey has been long and it's okay to vent but to vent to God because it helps us see things from His perspective. When things get real hard I do tend to want to complain. I thought of this sweet lady from Arkansas who was dealing with an unexpected death and how she has not one time complained over social media or her blog. Her entire world has been flipped upside down and if she can keep from complaining, so can I.
The second thing I have learned in all this is that I need to trust God COMPLETELY. I need to not worry about the future or try to plan for this or for that because it makes me self-sufficient. This is the part that is easier said than done. I know God has a plan for me and I know He will take care of me...I just have to trust . I had such a great year last year that I think I walked into this year thinking it was gonna be so easy. I didn't need to rely on God as much...I could take the reigns. When things get hard I cling to Him and when things get easy I tend to let go. I think I have a plan to work on that, but I won't know until I try :)

My blog is having a minor change. It will still look the same, it's just getting a different name with it's own domain and few other changes on the back end. These changes aren't entirely my choice, but I feel it's the best decision for now.

I am so thankful God loves not just me, but all of us. I am so thankful that He is patient with us because I have been quite slow in learning the lessons He has for me. If you are going through hard times please know I am praying for you. I may not know your name or the specifics of your situation but He does.