Pray Carefully and Specifically

Friday around 3:30 p.m. my work computer just crashed on me. I was super stressed out because my production was really low. I tried everything I knew to do to fix the problem or get support to contact me back. I realized around 7:00 p.m. there was no hope in getting production or my computer fixed that day. I went to bed feeling really sick to my stomach for fear of what I would face the next week. I did the only thing I knew to do...I cried everything I had in me out and prayed. One thing I said in my prayer was how tired and stressed I was and couldn't take much more. Never did I imagine anything would really come from that prayer, but I've since learned otherwise. I did not have a good weekend at all. I was extremely stressed out about work and then I had some personal problems crop up that just did me in. I am beyond stressed...I am to the point that I can barely eat anything because my stomach is just in knots from stress. It is completely unhealthy to be this stressed out and I have tried my best to just pray and move on. I guess God has his own way of helping me to relax a little lol. Monday morning came and let me tell you, I was dreading that day. I contacted our support team again about my computer and they informed that they would put in another request but to wait to hear back. I sat and waited all day and heard nothing. I was still stressed because even though it is completely out of my control, we can still get in trouble...maybe we didn't call support enough or we didn't stay in contact with our manager enough...there's always something that is our fault regardless. Around 3:00 p.m. I started to relax a little. I was beyond exhausted from getting no sleep Saturday night on top of all this stress. I put what little relax time I gave myself and clipped a good bit of my coupons out and organized them. I still have some to go but that gets really tiring after a while. I have to say when I picked Maddy up it felt really good knowing I could take my time with her and really enjoy the time we had together instead of being in a rush to complete work or just being stressed out from the events that happened at work. We played, ate, watched "Bob," and went to bed. As soon as I put her to bed I ended up going to bed. I didn't mean to fall asleep at all, but I was so exhausted the minute I laid down I was out. I woke up at 9:48 p.m. only to fall back asleep until 11:00 p.m. I remembered I left Manny in the kitchen so I grabbed him real quick and then fell back asleep until 7:00 a.m. I woke up a few other times but those are minor details lol. I woke up this morning feeling really good. It's amazing what 11 hours of sleep can do to a person who has been sleep deprived for three years lol. I was dreading contacting support and my manager again this morning, but I can tell the stress is slowly going down a little at a time. It's been determined that I need a new computer (no kidding...i coulda told ya that lol) and so far my manager has been understanding. I have begun to enjoy a little bit of my day today. I pulled out my scrapbook and have been working on it all morning while watching lifetime movies :) I'm seeing this unexpected time off as God giving me a break that I so desperately needed. This year is definitely a year of learning about the power of prayer for me. I am constantly hearing about praying not just for our present circumstances, but to also pray for our future. That is a new concept to me. I hope you all are having a better week than mine has started out as :)