Life Changes

For at least a couple of years I have had this feeling that I would be leaving my current job. The only way I would leave on my own is if I could get another job or start my daycare. This has scared me because Maddy depends on me to provide for her. I used to stay stressed out constantly from worrying about it, but I was able to let it go. My fear has come back and this time it seems even stronger than before. I don't know what is going on in my life, but I feel God is preparing me for some changes. I automatically assume my job but it could be anything really. Last week I had a horrible week. Every day was just constant bad thing after bad thing. The icing on the cake...apart from my car not starting...was when I read my daily calender page. The day was September 8 and here is what it said, "If the job you've been doing ends,or the provision you've known shuts off, or the fulfillment level of your work and activities ceases, or something major happens to change the status of your life, don't be alarmed. These could be signs of a change God is doing in your life. He may be getting you ready to enter into a new and exciting season. God's Word says that those who love Him and live His way will bear fruit into old age and always be fresh and flourishing." As I read that, my heart just sank. I do feel my time is coming to an end, I just don't know what's coming next. I am trying to just trust God to take care of me and Maddy but it's not always as easy as cake lol. I have had two very real and very vivid dreams that I am still trying to figure out what they mean. One I understand a little...it is about my old friend, but it was a sad dream...meaning I just felt sad in my dream and he was sad. The dream that really has me puzzled is a God dream. I can't remember specifics now but it was like I was having a revival. My heart was so on fire for God and I was shouting something and I felt as if the dream would have continued a little more I was going to start speaking in tongue. I woke up thinking man, I wanna be THAT close to God in real life! For now all I can do is my best and make sure I am following God. I know where one door closes another one opens, but it can still be a scary ride. I will end with a prayer that is on today's page. "Lord, when it's time for me to do something different, help me not to cling to the past or be afraid to move in to the future You have for me. My times are in Your hands, and I know that I am secure as long as I can walk through them all with You. Give me strength, courage, health, wisdom, revelation, and faith for the journey. I trust You to keep me on the right path and to continue giving me the light I need for the step I'm on.