The Office

I have been watching The Office on my iTunes this week while working. I find myself using that show as an escape from my job. I feel like I just keep getting in deeper and deeper at work and no matter how hard I try to get out of the hole aka doing things wrong, I just find myself worse off than I was before. If I had a second income coming in to help support Maddy, if I were married, I would have turned in my resignation a long time ago because the stress isn't worth it. I am literally unable to sleep at night because I am so worried over certain claims that will go to quality for audit and I'm not sure they will pass. I feel like a CEO with the amount of stress I feel from my job. I don't get paid enough for that kind of stress and it's ridiculous really that I let myself get that stressed. I have many conversations with the Lord...everytime I find myself stressing, I immediately start praying to try to get the worry off me. It's kinda sad that I find myself wishing I had a boss like Michael Scott. Yes, that type of person would probably get on my nerves something awful, but in the end I wouldn't worry so much about losing my job...I wouldn't be just a number...I would be an actual person. They would see how hard I do try in my job and do everything to keep me instead of saying oh sorry, you're not meeting so goodbye. I am a very realistic person...always have been...so for me to start wishing as much as I have been this week to have a workplace environment like that of The Office, is pretty unreal lol. I do really like the show even though there are a few things I don't like in certain episodes. Jim and Pam are of coarse my absolute favorite. They joke around all the time, but when it comes down to it...you can tell just how much Jim really does care for Pam and it makes me go aww. I have a few favorite epsidsodes, which include: The Dundies, Niagra pt 1 & 2 (Jim and Pam's wedding), I believe it's called The Job (when Jim asks Pam out on a date finally) and then when their baby is born. Yes, most of my favorite episodes are when something exciting happens with Jim and Pam...except The Dundies one is more because Pam acts hilarious lol. Since my ex friend got me hooked on this show, I find myself thinking about him a lot this week and it makes me sad. I won't go into why we aren't friends anymore, but I will say I hate that we can't be friends. I find myself hearing past conversations as certain episodes come on and then when I heard about Steve Carell leaving the show I so wanted to discuss the news with him, but we haven't talked in almost a year now. We became friends through work. We were in the same training class and actually a whole group formed in our training class. In retrospect we were pretty much the outcasts of the training class, but we had a lot of fun. We would always celebrate everybody's birthday in the group and the 2 years we all hung out, for my birthday, I always chose to have Rock Band night. Those were so fun and there probably wasn't many moments that I wasn't laughing. I hope to eventually own the game Rockband and I can't wait to share that experience with Maddy. I've definitely lost some friends in the last two years, maybe they were never really my friend to begin with, but either way I know I will make new friends along the way...I hope anyways. In case you don't know and you watch the show, April 28 is when Michael Scott says his final goodbye and the show is extended to 50 minutes. I am going to try my best to watch the show that night, but if I miss it I will catch it on NBC.com. I really don't know if I will like the show very much once Steve Carell leaves. Not sure how Will Ferrell will mesh with the show but reguardless I am sad to no longer have Steve on the show. These are my random thoughts for tonight. Good night all!